One in 6Billion
You know there are over 6 billion people on this planet…thats a lot of people. And out of all those people we get the honor of choosing one certain person to be with us for the rest of our lives. That person, that one single person, we act a different way with, we talk to a different way, we think about in a different way. Everything about that one person is completely different and it separates them from those other 6 billion people because they are different, a good different. And when you find them, you just know its them, there isn’t one single doubt and you think about them day and night and night and day and you want to spend every waking moment with them..you can’t help it that’s just how you feel and that’s all you want to feel. That one person makes you feel like somebody, finally gives you a reason to truly smile and you can’t think of anything better in the entire world because they are your entire world. But then, then you find out that the one person who once made you smile and feel love and made you feel real big in this huge world, you find out that when they said that they had picked you out of those 6billion they didn’t mean it…and you sure as hell thought they did though, and you’re confused because you can’t comprehend why they would spend all of their time with you and buy you things and say everything they were supposed to say and then just take it back..it just doesn’t make sense. But whats most confusing about it is that they don’t even tell you..you have to find out on your own, you have to find out that you weren’t that one in 6billion but you were their third or fourth in that 6billion. And that everything they made you feel and every word they said to you, they had just said it to someone else, they didn’t mean it. You were just that one in 6billion for the month or the week the day, maybe even the god damn hour or minute. And it’s sad because you truly thought they were your one in 6 billion and then you think well maybe they’re not, if your not theres how you they be yours?…and at the end of the day when you know everything they haven’t told you and you know every lie and mistake and hurtful thing they’ve done behind your back you sit there, look into their eyes and still say I love you back because you don’t want it to end. You don’t want to say goodbye…you just want to believe that you are their one in a billion and they mean it because you don’t want anyone else to be your one in 6billion, you want them. You can’t even tell them you know. And they probably won’t even read this or know that it has even been written. But I know…I know, and realizing it now, that’s all that matters is that I know and I will always know. I may be confused now and might just remain that way for a very long time, and that’s ok because one day, one day I will find my one in 6billion and he will find me too.
